If there is no one

Di close-knitted community yang sedang aku ikuti, di minggu ini, sedang ada challenge ini:

Challenge-nya sifatnya bebas sih. You can take it if you want, and it’s okay if you pass it. We usually count it as an exercise. When I came across this challenge, at first I’m thinking about doing it. And then I’m contemplating on how and who I’m going to write. And finally decide that I’m gonna pass this challenge. Even though it sounds wonderful and it seems like it would make my heart full.

But the thing is, I’m not in the situation where I’m surrounded by close friend lately. I shut myself and haven’t talk (deeply) to anyone for quiet some time. Aku punya teman, tapi aku tidak punya teman untuk berbagi secara heart to heart. Aku tidak punya teman yang aku bisa berbagi concern dan problem yang sedang kuhadapi. It’s almost seperti 2 tahun belakangan ini aku hanya berkomunikasi dengan orang lain, dengan keluarga, hanya di layer terluar. Berkomunikasi tentang what’s necessary.

Challenge in membuatku sadar kalo aku sedang tidak punya ‘loved ones’ di mana aku ingin menyurati mereka atau memberi pesan kepada mereka tentang hal yang aku sukai dari mereka. And it hit me: how alone and lonely I must feel right now.

Bagaimana aku bisa sampai di kondisi seperti ini?

Author: Faraziyya

Ordinary. Nothing Extra.

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