Week #6 BEC challenge: Here comes my alter ego!
Not only it is a tough challenge, it asked you to reveal yourself. Your secret. By the definition (at least from wikipedia), I assume that alter ego is a private matter. It requires a big heart to let other know about your alter ego. So I brave myself to write this post.
Friends from my high-school and college knew that I’m a quite cheerful person. Humble and makes a lot of friends. I am smart, socialized, active in organizations and have no difficulties to speak in front of people. That is me, a couple of years ago.
You know, life-changing moments could drive people into someone he/she is not. I’ve experienced two life-changing moments that came at once: my college dropped me out and my mother died fighting breast cancer. I thought, maybe that was when this alter ego came into existence. At first, I was grieving. Then, I thought life is unfair to me. I pulled myself away from outside world. I pretended that everything will be fine, acting strong in front of others. But deep in my heart, I hate meeting people who came to me bringing together their pity for me. I didn’t like people to ‘read’ me and I realized that I feel comfort in solitary. I loved silence so much that I thought I could live alone by myself.
My alter ego is a loner . A bit like Go Dok Mi from Flower Boy Next Door.
But don’t worry, that alter ego of mine has not yet control myself. I might be no longer a cheerful person, but I am in somewhere between friendly and not talking too much. 🙂
As I read this post again, why does it sound gloomy? I am so sorry, guys. I didn’t mean to. The point is, my alter ego is a loner. Unsocial person. And Go Dok Mi (before she met Enrique Geum) represents my alter ego.